Monday, November 30, 2020

The Diligent Search of the Distressed Heart

Life is full of seasons, and sometimes those seasons bring distress and the heaviness of unanswered questions. Sometimes it seems like God is absent or at least inattentive. And if you’re like me, sometimes those thoughts about God are accompanied by feelings of guilt, because you know in your head that God is never absent from His children but your feelings don’t always line up with what you know. It is in situations like these that we can find great encouragement in God’s Word.

When reading Psalm 77 the other day, I was impressed by what a beautiful picture it contains of how we can respond when we are in distress. Before we dig in, take a moment and read the Psalm here.

Right away, it becomes clear that Asaph is in distress. His first words are, “I cry aloud to God,” implying that his inner angst has become so great that it spills out in vocal expression. In verse 2, we see that his distress is constantly with him both “in the day” and “in the night” and that there is no relief: “my soul refuses to be comforted.” Even thinking of God makes him groan (v. 3). Eventually, he becomes silent as his burden grows even greater: “I am so troubled that I cannot speak” (v. 4). In verse 5, Asaph begins to think about the distant past and desires to turn his thoughts to more pleasant things during the difficult night.

At the end of verse 6, comes a turning point: “Then my spirit made a diligent search:” What follows is a series of questions in which we can see Asaph’s confusion and doubt: “Will the Lord spurn forever, and never again be favorable? Has his steadfast love forever ceased? Are his promises at an end for all time? Has God forgotten to be gracious? Has he in anger shut up his compassion?” (vv. 7-9). These questions span the whole gamut of second-guessing God. Asaph assumes the Lord is actively against him and questions whether this rejection will last forever. He questions God’s attributes, wondering if His love is only temporary. He doubts God’s promises, asking if they have an expiration date. He questions whether God is absent-minded, thinking He might be forgetting to be true to His character. Finally, he considers again whether God is actively withholding His blessings out of anger.

Then we come to verse 10. At first, this verse seems to be another turning point, when reading the ESV. It reads, “Then I said, ‘I will appeal to this, to the years of the right hand of the Most High.’” However, when looking at the original Hebrew, it seems that other translations are more accurate, such as the NASB that reads, “Then I said, ‘It is my grief, That the right hand of the Most High has changed.’” In the Hebrew for this verse, there is a word that denotes grief, sickness, or weakness, so it makes sense to see verse 10 as a continuation of Asaph’s feelings of doubt.[i] He has questioned and seems to come to the conclusion that the answers to his questions are ‘yes, God has forsaken me.’

But Asaph doesn’t stop there. These questions are only the beginning of his “diligent search.” As soon as he acknowledges his feelings that God has abandoned him, he begins to preach to himself the truths he knows about God, anchored in the reality of God’s past actions and His eternal character. Even though his feelings led him to think of all these questions, he refuses to stop short of completing his search. He does not wallow in his doubt. Instead, he makes a conscious decision to “remember the deeds of the LORD; yes, I will remember your wonders of old. I will ponder all your work, and meditate on your mighty deeds” (vv. 11-12). He once again turns his attention to the past, but this time his focus is more specific. Rather than generally “consider[ing] the days of old,” Asaph specifically remembers God’s hand in them.

Notice that he moves from just remembering to pondering and meditating. In other words, he first calls God’s actions to mind and then mulls them over, thinking about them deeply and purposefully. His conclusion is the recognition that “Your way, O God, is holy” (v. 13). As he continues to ponder, he asks another question—"What god is great like our God?”—to which the implied answer is, “None!” Asaph focuses on the supreme uniqueness of God and the perfect uprightness of His dealings with mankind.

Verse 11 marks another turning point, as we see Asaph move from talking about God to talking to Him. Perhaps it is meditating on the greatness and holiness of God that causes him to erupt in worship: “You are the God who works wonders; you have made known your might among the peoples” (v. 14). He acknowledges God’s power as well as His grace in revealing Himself not only to the Israelites, but to other peoples too.

For the rest of the Psalm Asaph recounts specific ways in which God’s sovereignty over nature was displayed (vv. 16-18), His tender care was exhibited (v. 20), and His redemptive plan was set in motion (v. 15). In verse 19, Asaph acknowledges that there were times when God was at work yet His “footprints were unseen.” In offering specific praise to God, Asaph reminds himself that the fact he cannot see God moving does not negate the fact that He is.

I hope you’ve seen by now that Psalm 77 not only teaches us about God, but it also provides us with a blueprint for how to care for our souls when suffering from a distressed heart. It shows us that it is okay to question and have moments of doubt, but that we should press through the doubt to the glorious assurance that awaits us on the other side as we discover anew the greatness and kindness and compassion of the God of Heaven. It shows us that we should preach to ourselves the Truth of who God is, reminding ourselves of what we know from experience and from the unfailing Word of God. It shows us that we should think deeply about what God has done and is doing for us, choosing to dwell on that rather than on our current distress.

My prayer is that if you are distressed today, you will find encouragement in Asaph’s psalm and, following his example, will make your own diligent search until you find the peace of God in Jesus Christ that comes from knowing Him, pondering His mighty works, and resting in His love and care for you.  

To read the Arabic translation of this post, click here.

لقراءة الترجمة العربية لهذا المنشور إضغط هنا.

PC: Cyndi Hackett. Used with permission.



[i] Bible Hub. Strong’s Lexicon: Psalm 77:10. https://biblehub.com/parallel/psalms/77-10.htm. Accessed 27 October 2020. 

Monday, November 16, 2020

Gratitude 2.0

As Thanksgiving is approaching, I’m reminded of the importance of showing gratitude and specifically of directing that gratitude toward God for the many blessings He has given us, both material and spiritual. A couple of weeks ago, during my daily time in the Bible, I read Psalm 105 and was struck by the opening verses that find their echo in so many other passages of Scripture:

                        Oh give thanks to the Lord; call upon his name;
                                                                      make known his deeds among the peoples!

                              Sing to him, sing praises to him;
                                                                     tell of all his wondrous works!

                              (Psalm 105:1-2, ESV)

Note the connection between giving thanks to God and communicating the goodness of “his deeds” and “his wondrous works” to others. Reading this passage gives us the sense that the two actions go hand in hand. As I read these verses, I was reminded of one of my Sunday School teachers from high school. At the time, I was a member of a megachurch with an incredibly large youth group. There were several Sunday School classes for each age group, and we stayed in the same class for two years. So for my freshman and sophomore years of high school, I sat under the teaching of Mrs. Barham.

Each week before we got into the lesson, she would ask us how we had seen God at work during the previous week. It could be something we had seen in our own lives or in the lives of someone we knew. For a while not many, if any, of us were able to answer. But she kept asking, week after week, and eventually we started to pay attention and were able to share things that we had noticed, whether they were answers to prayer, provision of courage or peace in a certain situation, or something else, big or small.

Through Mrs. Barham’s persistence, we began to have our antennas up, as she would say, so that we were alert and watchful, anticipating seeing God work in some way throughout the week. After all, He is always at work; we only have to be looking and have our receivers tuned to the station of His Spirit. And by keeping the eyes of our face and our spirit open, we will find that we have much more to be thankful for as we see more and more of how God is protecting, providing for, and sustaining us and how He is moving in the lives of those around us.

This attentiveness doesn’t stop with our internal recognition of God’s goodness, though. Just as Mrs. Barham had us share with the class the ways in which we had seen God work, so the Psalmist calls us to share our observations with others. This second step can be considered Gratitude 2.0, where instead of merely thanking God privately (which is still important to do), we go a step further and broadcast our gratitude “among the peoples.” In doing so, we not only continue to ponder God’s goodness in our own hearts, but also we spread the gratitude around, allowing other people to join in the offering of thanksgiving. And in the process, God receives more and more glory, as He is praised not only in our hearts but through our mouths and in the hearts of others as well.

Another added benefit of upgrading your practice of gratitude to Gratitude 2.0 is that God could use your stories of seeing Him work to encourage others who are going through a season of fog. Maybe someone you know is having difficulty seeing God’s hand in their lives. Maybe they feel that He has forgotten about them. Maybe they’re having a hard time “tuning in” to the right station to be able to pick up a “clear signal” and are missing all the ways in which God is at work. Hearing your testimony of how you have seen God at work could be the tool that God uses to remind them of His goodness and grace. And there again, God’s glory will be magnified, which is the most important result of all.

So today I’d like to challenge you, as Mrs. Barham challenged me, to be watching, be aware, be attentive to God’s work in your life and in the world around you. If you’ve seen God move in some way this week, share in the comments below. Both things big and small are worthy of giving thanks for. And if you haven’t been watching, start today. Give yourself a week of intentionally paying attention; then come back and let us know in the comments what you’ve seen.

May we all continue to cultivate an awareness of God’s work, to give thanks to Him with our minds and in our hearts, and to share the accounts of His goodness with our family of faith and the watching world.

PC: Kelly Sterrett of Samila Designs
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Monday, November 2, 2020

On Art, Language, and God: A Conversation with Nathan Bennett Adams (Part 3)

In Part 1 and Part 2, artist and poet Nathan Bennett Adams shared about his passion for language and art and how creating art can help us learn about who God is. Today, we finish the conversation looking at how art can be used to start theological conversations and how aspiring artists can hone their skills.

Olivia: What are some ways that artistic expression can be used to reach others with the good news of the Gospel?

Nathan: I kind of echoed this already, the fact that we as imperfect people, creatures, humans cannot replicate something perfectly is a good philosophical discussion. It’s a good theological reminder. So then, if you have that dilemma, then what do you do? If a chef—and this is something I’ve studied too—uses this language: “It is perfect,” and I think theologically, you’re like, “Mmm, nothing’s perfect other than Christ.” And it’s like, okay, good, and yet they’re trying to say something accurately, maybe they’re using a little bit of hyperbole. So then philosophically it does create a good discussion of: what are they saying? They executed something really freaking well. That’s what they’ve said.

This is something that a couple of poets have said and then a couple of theologians have said referring to the poet or the artist. Dorothy Sayers said something like this—that when a poet or artist approaches the page that’s blank, he or she takes on a moment of God. And it’s like—pause, I’m not saying you are God, so just don’t mishear what I’m saying. There’s something that isn’t there yet, and then you have a chance to bring something in. So then I’m just like, “That’s the imago Dei! That’s the imago Dei!” And then that is something that we can kind of get, with how creation was, right? So ex nihilo, out of nothing came something. That is so sick!

And I think that is what I would offer to answer that question: that there is—I guess you could almost say apologetically, but sometimes when people think of apologetics you think of like the big debate on the corner of a street. I am noticing that’s not really happening anymore; it does happen, but I’m thinking the small places. It’s usually at a dinner table. It’s usually at a coffee shop when you’re with a coworker. It’s sometimes when someone buys a piece of yours that you don’t know anything about, and then they ask you a question. They say, “Why do you do what you do, Nate? Why do you draw?” There’s a moment. I can at least drop a nugget and just let it be. I don’t need to give them the full spiel—it’s honestly just being sensitive to the Spirit, right? Like really pray over—and I think this is something that we should do—but pray over “What does need to be said right now?” I mean, if we’re supposed to lean on the Spirit when we pray, Paul says, then I’m like, dang, we need to be doing that when we open our mouths too, right.

So yeah, that there’s a start and an end to a piece, there’s forethought, there’s intentionality. That’s why I think postmodern art is a complete sham. Maybe not, I shouldn’t say all that, ‘cause there’s stuff that I see that’s really pretty. There’s stuff that I’m like, “That is very pretty.” And Anna and I have this talk all the time, ‘cause there’s times where I go to an art gallery—and this is something that Schaeffer talks about, but most philosophers talk about this too: that art, if you pay attention to the art world, predates philosophy. So philosophers respond to the artists. ‘Cause the artists, let’s just say, are dealing with the ideas now, so then they start putting it out, then the philosophers talk about what’s going on.

So I am noticing, ‘cause I consider myself like a Renaissance Man who’s definitely a philosopher in mind, that I go to some of these galleries, and I see most work is abstract, predominantly abstract. And then what’s also kinda becoming annoying, which a lot of people are starting to have this discussion (and I say “a lot of people”—I’m bumping into podcasts or YouTube where they’re starting to have this discussion) of like, “We want meaning.” So when the artist starts saying that there is no meaning. What happens? This is what’s so funny: apologetically or metaphorically in writing a poem or an essay, people get this intuitively. You walk into a museum, you go to a spot, you see something, and it’s like “Untitled; this has no meaning”? They’re like, “What the heck is that?!” People kinda get frustrated. They’re like, “Why did he do that?” or “What does that mean?” They’re looking for someone in the museum, like, “Hey, can you please describe this to me?”

And I go, “That’s a metaphor for the philosophy of language!” That we desire and crave meaning and order. And, and, I would argue, we want objective truth. We desire it. We want something to stand and refer to the rest of the world. But if we have no ground—everyone knows what no ground looks like: it looks like people running to safe ground. We know this in earthquakes. We know this in sinking sand. Your first inclination is to move, get out of this junk. And then it’s like, “Oh, gravel,” all of a sudden you’re kinda slipping on a walk, slipping, slipping, slipping, you want to go to what? A bigger rock! It’s so intuitive. And I’m like, this is philosophically so sick—and theologically too.

Yeah, that there is objective truth to reality. There is something good about the relationship between an artist and the audience, and I think what I am noticing in conversations that I have the opportunity to have is that people are ripe for meaning and they want meaning. They want order. And I think when you have a piece that doesn’t have meaning it gets really loud. Just like when you watch a movie, and all of a sudden it just ends, you’re like, “What was that?!” And everybody’s like *gasp*. And then what do people mostly say? “I wanna talk to the artist.” “I wanna talk to the director, the screenwriter. Why the heck did you make that decision? Please tell me there’s some reason you did that, right?” You want it.

So yeah, I think that’s a big piece to your question. We crave order and meaning. And we’re participants in it. I think that’s something that’s really loud about the Christian heritage is that we’re not pragmatically brought into the story of Yahweh to just conveyor-belt, like do-your-part-and-carry-on, but we’re participants. And that is freaking awesome. That gets me boosted. That is a declaring; that’s a very loving, beautiful, kind God that He would invite us in. Get outta here, man! So I’m getting hyped on a whole bunch of things right now. But, yeah, the good news is that when you look at that blank page, you want to create, and I think apologetically or philosophically you can have a question of like, “Why do you desire to create at all?” That’s a fun thing.

Olivia: What advice do you have for budding artists out there?

Nate: Yeah, this is another one I get. This is good, but I would almost go back to what I said in my first class. One thing I shared at that, is I said from the very beginning, “Humans are not perfect.” Or maybe I phrased it as a question: “Is the human perfect?” There’s a whole bunch of kids and adults; it’s like we all need to hear this. “No.” “Can we produce perfection?” “No.” “K, good. So we’ve agreed upon some really big premises that are gonna springboard us throughout the rest of this class.” And I think that’s honestly what I would share. That, and then the next step is probably the pragmatic, “Yeah, Nate, you just told me something I already know.” Right, so then, it’s the next thought of now you can do something with this *laugh* revolutionary knowledge, that you are acting more human when you acknowledge that. And when you go to be an artist, when you go to art, draw, create, that gives you a giant ability to deep-breath and relax.

And then if I’m talking to a believer, I think you have a moment where you’re dealing with worship, like leaning in towards Yahweh. You’re not worshiping the thing of the final result. You’re heading into that it’s beyond just creating to create. And then for the nonbeliever who’s interested in being an artist… yeah, I think you’re interacting with a lot of presuppositions, and I think a lot of them are really really true. And it’s like, ask those questions of, “Why create at all? Why is there aesthetics?” It’s not an accident that almost all philosophers were pondering or baffled by aesthetics. Regardless of whether they didn’t land theistically on something, they at least pondered that this is extremely powerful. “And all humans like this? Huh, that’s really weird…”

And I also would say—and everyone says this, and I have to remind myself of this too—but practice. Practice, practice. We all know this, but I think there’s something with art specifically that I think it’s hard for people to grasp practicing. “What does it mean to practice as an artist? That’s weird. It’s not a scale at a piano, or it’s not a violin and I know how to practice hitting my finger to that spot and then practicing my vibrato. Do I just keep drawing the same thing over and over again? That’s kinda boring.” And I’m like, “You’re right. That does feel boring. That does sound boring.” But as an athlete, one thing that I would contribute to this discussion is that an athlete still practices passes, he still practices a layup, like the most simple, “duh” thing about the sport. And they do dribbling drills. Are you for real? How to dribble the ball up and down the court, like the most primitive thing of basketball, right? Or soccer drills!

If you’re not an athlete, it’s sometimes a hard metaphor to grasp, ‘cause like, “I never did that.” So then as a pianist, you understood scales helped. Why? The flexibility of your fingers, the fluidity of the rhythm within your fingers, the touch of the keys—I used to play piano, so I’m talking a little bit from experience. So then, carry a sketchbook. Draw whatever. Draw whatever. And then one thing I’d specifically say is—“Whatever, Nate? Oh my gosh, that’s too big, I don’t even know what to do with that! My parents tell me that all the time.” Then grab something that’s in your house, and put it in front of you, and draw it. Grab a thing of scissors. Put it in front of you and draw scissors. If that’s not beautiful—and I think that’s something I bumped into earlier, you wanted to draw something beautiful, you wanted to draw something pretty, there’s something 100% admirable about that, so like, hold to that, but think of it as a separate thing that you wanna practice. This is your practice lane; these are your dribbling practices. ‘Cause it helps your eyes. It helps your eyes-to-your-hand relationship.

And when I research some of the high-end artists out there, whether comic books, illustrators for like The New Yorker to L.A. Times to a game, like a board game, those kind of illustrators too, they all talk about what I’m talking about right now. So I’m like, if the pros are saying this, then I should pay attention: still draw things that are right in front of you; finish, don’t finish, but you have to put in the line work. You have to put in the practice.

And I guess the last thing I would say is worry about your style later. I have to tell myself that, “Your style will come later.” So a lot of people just say, “Draw what you like, and if you like anime, draw anime.” But don’t forget to draw something that’s in front of you. ‘Cause I think a lot of the times when I hear about people who only draw anime, but they can’t draw a glass that’s in front of them, then I notice. I’m like, “You’re missing really big things that are gonna help you out when you draw an anime figure or background. ‘Cause then you’re dealing with color; you’re dealing with shape; you’re dealing with lights; you’re dealing with volumes.” When you have an image in front of you, you can’t argue with it. It’s like, here it is. “Oh wow, my line was really off here. Why was it off?” You can look at it.

So. Practice. Enjoy it. It’s not like, “Do what makes you happy.” I kinda hate that mantra that’s happening in today’s world. I’m like, “That’s not a complete thought! You can’t do that!” *laugh* Yeah, but just draw whatever’s in front of you, and carry a sketchbook. I think a sketchbook is helpful, ‘cause then if you don’t like something and it’s garbage, just turn the page! But draw it in the sketchbook, ‘cause then it’s there. And that’s something I would finally end with saying—an imperfect line is more true; it’s just more true to reality. So I think I’m offering something philosophical there, but throw away a pencil, and just do something with a pen for a long time. And then if you wanna do graphite—‘cause there are plenty of graphite artists that are like *whew*, it’s stunning what they can do—but a pen, like hitting a piano key, it’s a commitment. And if you hit it, you know you did it right or not.

I hope you’ve enjoyed “listening in” to this conversation and have found points to ponder whether it be God’s creativity, His invitation to us to participate in that creativity, the vastness of who God is, how we can look at art, language, food, nature, sport—anything in life—and learn about God from it, and so much more. If you’d like to follow Nate on his artistic journey, you can find him on Instagram @nathan.b.adams. He also accepts commission requests! Until next time, enjoy pondering the depths of our creative God!